Never Gonna Get It Right!

Seems I am never gonna be able to write blog posts on a regular basis. Sad as it is. Yep, stay at home mom and all the time in the world right!! HAHA. Course I am busy with so many other things. School and what not. Either way. There is a boat load of things on my mind. Hubby has been working hard to get his truck running so we have a second vehicle. I have been struggling with my faith and where I am as far as within my family. Often times I feel resented by certain family members. Of course I feel like it has stemmed from things that happened before it was any of my control. However I should not feel that way. I love all of my family whether they think I do or not. As far as my faith... In some ways I feel I have drifted away from God. I was doing wonderful before staying on top of my Bible Studies and things. Nowadays... I struggle to find time. It should not be that way. God would not have to struggle to find time for me. He would be there as soon as I opened my mouth. Sigh and that is what is making my life difficult now  I am going to have to sit down and do some serious soul searching, talking with the Lord and getting my life back on track. As for my church... its wonderful church and I love it. I have this internal struggle to "fit in". I am by no means a girly girl and do not do much shop talk and I am not into the latest fashions nor am I any size to be "into" them but I try and to no avail I still find myself drifting away from them and into my husbands conversations with the men about sports, guns, cars and things. Its not the women at the church. They are wonderful and friendly and welcoming. Its me! I am glad however that there is one thing that MOST of us have in common and that is we all love the Lord and we are moms. Snot, poop, pee, barf, boogers, giggles, holding little ones hands, chasing them in the church parking lot, the whole nine. We can definitely all relate to that and I love them all the more for that. Unfortunately feeling the way I do causes me to distance myself from people. I have tried most of my life to try and fit in with my own family members and been rejected that it is difficult for me to attempt to do that with strangers for fear or rejection. I cannot say that SOME of my family does not have a reason to not be my biggest fan however I feel as though I have apologized about many things I KNOW I have done and asked for forgiveness. Of course in hopes that it would come and it does not. I used to be a HUGE confrontational person and these days I am not so much unless there is some blatant reason for me to open my mouth and step in. Okay so that is my soap box today. I am hoping there are more uplifting posts in the near future. The weather is changing and hopefully for the duration to more spring weather and I usually am in better spirits when the weather is nicer. I am sure most folks can relate. So to end on a better note. I love my life and my family. God has blessed me with a wonderful life full of wonderful people.

Behind..... Again!

Is anyone else having a hard time sticking to something right now?? Sigh... maybe its just me. Anyways, I really have no excuse. I have not been too busy and I have not had a lot of things going on that are outside my head. (Trust me you do not want to know what all goes on up there) I have been such a terrible slacker lately and I am really really wanting to change that... now, question is can I? I can... but... there is always a but right? Somewhere I always say but. Homeschooling is going good, Bible study is going good, finally got the kick back to go back to Church after recovering from sicknesses and holidays and what not. So, no excuses right. I am dying to start working out again, eating right and just all around feeling physically better. How am I gonna do that I have no idea. I have p90x and zumba dvds so theres really no excuse there. Not to mention the kids love doing Zumba with me. They are soo cute and they sure do not look as silly as I do. They make Zumba look good. Thats neither here nor there. I have been lukewarm in a lot of areas of my life to include spiritual life but just like your mental and physical state your spiritual state needs to be worked out too and I have slacked in that. But here I am, again trying to make you believe I will be back for good. SO we shall see! Anyone want to hold me accountable? Anyone? Ok! Great! Well I  hope everyone has a blessed day! =D

Welcome 2013!

I have been working on another blog post for quite some time now. Crazy I cant seem to find the time to slow down and do it. So I will be doing it bit by bit between housework and running after the children! Should be fun and a long blog post. This New Years was much like last year. Full off family time. New Years eve spent at the park with the kiddos and then home in the bed snuggled with my husband. He was tired and had to work the next day so he slept. Thank goodness too. Neighbors were shooting off fireworks. Since Afghanistan he has not dealt with them very well of course unless he is the one firing them off. He went to work New Years day and I went to my moms had a scrumptious lunch and hung out with the kids some MORE. Yesterday evening a couple of our bestists came over and we had dinner and shot off fireworks till we were cordially asked to stop came inside and just hung out together. Its what we 4 do best. Talk and just hang out. Resolutions this year? Well I said to my self I was not going to make any because you can change your life and better it at any point during the year. Naturally a NEW year means a chance to start again. So I am asking you my readers/ friends and family to be supportive and encourage me to stick with what I say I am going to do. I will be posting my resolutions in the margin of my blog for the year so we can keep track of it. Hows that? They are small things but things that should be done. I really want to thank everyone who reads my blog. It means a whole lot to me that you guys like keeping up with my life. Not that its Kim Kardashian style but its my style. I am really looking forward to this year. I welcome it with open arms. Hubby and I have some fun plans this year including time spent seeing family who live WAY out of town. I cannot wait to see all of them. Its been years. So that is all for today. I hope each one of you readers had a blessed Christmas and a Happy New Year and that God brings many many blessings into your life this year!

The Great Makeup Debate

Okay so I have been really busy with Christmas stuff to blog. PLEASE forgive me. I have already taken down my Christmas decorations including my tree. I love it and its beautiful but its too much. Too cluttered. Anyways so now Im in a bit of a debate. I really want to try a new make up and I have been balancing on getting the Urban Decay Naked II Palette but its $50 and to me that is RIDICULOUS to spend that much money on makeup. Then recently someone posted a pic of something called Lorac Ooh La La Lace! I love that Palette too!! Oh and TiffanyD Has her Defining Eyes Palette with Sigma too that I want badly.  Im just not sure which to start with. Not to mention spend that kind of money on makeup! I have heard great things about both. I'm still working on my technique too so we will see. I will let you guys know what I decide. I did get some cute Avon makeup that I asked for for Christmas. Cant wait to try it. Contrary to before Avon's makeup quality has improved dramatically. I got some foundations I am going to try and a couple of mini lip gloss palettes and an mini eye shadow palette. Hubby already loves the lipstick. Found some NICE makeup brushes in the gift set at Walmart on clearance for $5. Cant beat that especially if they don't work good then I don't have to feel guilty about tossing them if I don't like them. Wow... I sound like a girly girl. 2 years ago you would never have heard me making a big fuss about makeup. Now that Im older, like they say an old barn can use a lil paint! HAHA! Anyways. I will do another Christmas post in the near future. But just a lil preview of what went on... here is a pic. Hope you guys had a Merry Christmas. I know I did. Probably one of the best in years. Not gift wise but just family together being happy time! =)

Hubbs and I with our sister and her man in our onesie jammies we got on Christmas Eve from the in-laws! =P

Fun Stuff!

Okay so the first part of getting organized is getting my folders together and things like that. =) In order to do that I have scoured the internet for cute printables to use to organize them. Everything I get are freebies. I do not take them if they have not allowed it. First off I get my super duper cute calendars from Hello Cuteness! She has all kinds of super cute things there. You can purchase the calendars at better quality than printing them off. But because I use it for personal use I'm not too worried about that! I also use these in my home School planner for the months. They are just too precious not to use ya know! In her old repository at her old site I love love her menu planners and to do lists. Those are here Anything But Perfect! Anyways I have a weekly planner I use for my Home School is not from her site. Actually I get bits and pieces from many different sites! The front and back cover, the weekly planners, and the notes section are from this site New Beginnings! Again I am very picky about my stuff so I do not use EVERYTHING from one site. That also gives your planner some individuality. And... sadly enough I have a blog planner... The cover of my blog planner comes from Confessions of a Home Schooler. I didn't like the in depth blog planner because my blog is simply simple right now. The actual planning part of my blog is simple and I love it. It comes from The Flourishing Abode. So that's it, the basics of my organization in my paperwork and planning. Its crazy the harder I try to get organized the more I realize how unorganized I was! On a higher note, today was supposed to be the end of the world and the apocalypse and all that but HEY were still here and everything outside still appears normal. Course I never believed in all that hoopla anyways. The Bible says no one knows the day or the time, not even the angels. Matthew 24:36 “But concerning that day and hour no one knows, not even the angels of heaven, nor the Son, but the Father only." That is great news. I cant wait for that day. Gonna be great to be with our Father in heaven. Tonight the kiddos are going to the in-laws to do their yearly tradition of making a gingerbread house. Its cute! While they are there hubbs and I are going to try and FINISH Christmas shopping.. =/ We have had our discussions on telling the kids the truth about Santa. Especially Baby girl because she has actually asked us about it. We debated but she forgot when she seen someone who looked just like Santa at the hockey game. HE IS REAL! she said. I just let it go. But do not go on thinking that my kids do not know that the IMPORTANCE of Christmas is NOT Santa or presents but of the best present of all, Jesus Christ! That makes me think about Buttercup. I love our Church. The hallway of the Children's Ministry building is a mural of popular Bible stories on one side and the life of Jesus on the other. While the older two are at children's choir Buttercup and I walk up and down the hallway talking about the Bible stories and Jesus. I just love it. Kids will be Kids, when I asked her who the big muscular man was smashing the pillars down she said it was Mary. =/ Sorry. Mary I believe had the strength and faith that Samson did but I do not think she had the muscles he did. *Giggle* Anyways. Christmas is right around the corner and I am still completely not in the Christmas spirit. Maybe after a little shopping and seeing some Christmas lights it will help. I hope everyone has a blessed day! Remember Jesus is the reason for the season! =)

NEW! NEW!

Okay my dear friends, I have gotten way behind but now I have made a vow to myself and my family to get more organized and keep up with things. Such as... cleaning, educating, training, and things like that. I love being a stay at home mom but I have overwhelmingly strong lazy bones that sometimes just kick my behind and make me do NOTHING all day everyday and that has been made clear to me that it HAS to stop. I have all the materials to get organized I just lack the motivation. Sad isnt it? With the supposed end of the world tomorrow I might be too late. But you know they always say better late than never. =) In all honesty I have been somewhat exhausted since preparing and performing in our churchs Singing Christmas Tree. It takes alot of work. Definitely more than I had ever imagined it. Anyways, so here is my vow to you blog followers, I intend on keeping up with it. (should be much easier now that I have internet at my house again). I truly missed blogging and my next vow to you are my blogs will be informational, upbeat and inspirational. In the past I have regrettably wrote things that were not and I am truly sorry. Writing I had every intentions of hoping to hurt those who have hurt me but now I see that was not the appropriate and Christian way to deal with things. So in all honesty if I wrote a blog and it offended you I am truly sorry. However, I cannot guarantee I wont post things that are contraversial or some may find offensive. Again I will go back to the idea of if you find what I post offensive feel free to discontinue reading my blog. Anyways. That is all for now until I can figure out what else I can possibly update everyone on and I get things more organized. I hope everyone has a blessed day!

Long time...

So much has been going on. Good and some not so good. Hubby and I are still working on being 100% completely debt free. Taking a class called Financial Peace University. We both have become extremely active in our church and our Sunday school class. Which I absolutely adore! My old high school fb friends are slowly being pushed out by my wonderful church family. I was doing great at working out but some things happened, hubby changed shifts and well my sitter for the gym is no more. So I am going to have to compensate somehow at home. Guess I could put my p90x and Zumba to good use. Homeschooling has been fun. I go through alot of ink printing worksheets and things like that. I think my babygirl still misses her school and her friends. Sometimes i wonder if she misses them more than she did me when she was in school. Our littlest one is now 3. Gosh time flies. Our son is getting big. 4 years old and as big as his 7 year old sister. We are still waiting on the Med board process for James. He has gone back to the VA for more xrays and it has seemed his back has gotten worse. He has an MRI coming up which should show more. His PTSD is getting better. Got your good days and your bad days. Mostly good days. Course that makes the bad days more obvious. He hates taking his meds for it but I encourage him and remind him some guys have it much worse. Thats pretty much all that has been going on around here. Time flies when your having fun. Im going to try to update regularly but like I said between homeschool, church, FPU, Bible Study, and family and friends spare time is hard to come by! Anyways. I hope you all have a blessed evening!